Finding Home

10 January 2023

After only 3 weeks in our home, I could weep at the realisation of how much more capable I am at dealing with life with this basis, this root system, support structure. I'm back.

I'm not feeling so run ragged, even with Eden poorly and the persistent wind and rain outside. I feel so absolutely humbled to have the opportunity of a stable home after 3 years of struggle and uncertainty.

It's not where I want to be long-term, but it will do well for us for the now. It's a peaceful sanctuary in East Sussex near to some of the communities we are part of.

I found living in our previous house hard. There was a bottle neck right outside where vehicles would brake hard then speed up again and zoom off. Noisy heavy trucks would be a regular feature because of the new builds going on locally. The layout and energetics made me feel like a goldfish in a goldfish bowl, claustrophobic and stuck. I felt fenced in vu the narrow fenced off garden. It was noisier and more hectic than London, without the charm and idiosyncrasies of that place.